Lottery Madness

I may not have mentioned the fact that I once was a compulsive gambler. It all started back around the year 1999 or so when Mom took me up to the casino. (Yeah, I'll blame her for my addiction!) Over the years, I have been addicted to varied degrees with gambling and in one year alone, I spent $10,130.00, which equates to $27.00 a day or $194.27 a week. if I had all of the money that I have spent gambling since the scratch games came to Colorado (roughly 1980)I would probably have close to a quarter of a million dollars.
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So whats the moral? How did I allow myself to become double minded? How could I claim to love God and represent Jesus Christ on the one hand, all the while allowing my addictive personality to rear its ugly head and take over? I have been in Celebrate Recovery for four years, and am only now beginning to scratch the surface as to how and why I became addicted and why the possibility of relapse still exists and how to spot the signs.

I don't feel like a loser, although I certainly could have done a better job in my life managing my money!